Friday, August 08, 2008


Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. About life, the universe, and everything. And it's just sad. I wish I didn't have to live here anymore, didn't have to write this stupid thesis. Didn't have to witness people be hypocrites. But I'm really not going to get into it as I have a privacy policy.

I'd like to clarify that I don't think a lot of people read this blog, but I am aware that some people I may not want to might be reading this blog. So that's why certain topics are strictly forbidden.

But I miss the days when I didn't have to worry about deadlines. When I didn't have to worry about people being traitors. When things were better. I miss so many things it hurts at times. But most of all, I miss innocence. I miss not being jaded. I miss actually having faith in people. I don't think I do anymore, for the most part. (I'm not saying that I've lost faith in everybody, but in a good amount of people, yes.)

Oh God, I sound so emo. *waits for Tovi to comment on the emo*

Maybe all of this is due to so many things happening at once. Those intense weeks of working on my proposal, then prepping for work. Then my uncle passing away and seeing so many people suffering. Add to that that I keep finding out that people talk behind my back about things that, honestly, are either untrue or none of their business. And now, my laptop seems completely dead. Which pisses me off because hell, all my stuff's in there and because it's another investment that needs to be made. I don't want to because I want to save money so I can move.

I don't want to alarm anyone with this post. Or trigger more gabfests. But I just want to put it out there in case you see me more tired than usual.

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